I declared loudly in my heart and in my journals January of 2013. This is it. I'm going to have to do something. Go back to grad school, relocate, and or just take any art endeavors like the horns of the bull and just move with it. I can't keep going with my current work life. Then I get this course in my email inbox one day early spring. I woke up 5am before deadline to sign up for Lilla Rogers Course. Make Art That Sells. It was money I could not touch. We have been tight financially. Though my new york, hustling, rebel heart will take the lead again. It got me through 15 years living in Brooklyn & Queens. How could it fail me now?! Here I am with a beautiful art studio, life, home, daughter, husband and family. What do I have to loose?
The last few months had felt like a complete year of growth for me. The amount of AMAZING, positive people in this course with Lilla that started in June has been a flood gate of pink neon goodness, pouring into my heart. I can't help but feel this tremendous amount of weight lifted from my soul opening up a new path, point of view and just all around respect for all the artists involved through the course. Your energy has help me realize that I can do this. We can do this. Despite full time work schedules and children/spouses involved. We can make it happen. Week by week and having FUN again!! So that I have been so grateful of. Can I say that the gift art week with all the pouches were INSANE?!? And then the GTS Work!!!! It is amazing. The energy!!!! Please congrats your self!!!
So now I am this morning as I checked my iphone for emails and social network. I see the announcement on Lilla's Blog. Still in bed I said, okay just going to look at it quickly and get it over with it. The last few weeks was messy, but I kept on working on my art. And kept moving on plans. So I scroll down and am just so excited about each beautiful journal entries coming up. It was all the journals that I thought Lilla would pick. Then gasp! Tears woke my husband up like it was those good old pregnancy days. WOAHHHHH. What just happened? Thats my work!! In a contest!! Picked!!!
So here I am one of the semi-finalists for the Global Talent Search Contest, Via Lilla Rogers Studio. I'm flying, but I'm trying to be humble. No matter what happens I'm signed up in MATB Course in October from the start. I'm still continuing on with plans written down in January & July. If any of the people that entered the contest or are MAT students reading this. Know that we are all amazing. For the last 15 years out of school. I've had moments of many giving ups. Though I kept seeking support from coaches, yoga, to volunteering in creative communities. I kept on going. So you can let something like this get you down or give you more fire. I always choose fire in that case and a lot of yoga class like grounding in the other. I look at not just the artists in Lilla's studio, though world wide, and I feel like an ant. (The eames power of 10 Film pretty much sums that feeling I think well.) Okay maybe I'm exaggerating!! But its a great movie!! The work on this planet is amazing. All of us has a unique story and dedication behind our work. We all have so much to contribute and calling in our lives. I'm constantly in battle with mine, but every week. I have a to do list. And every week I have a quote in my studio to look at. And every day, I do something with my Ellie to make her smile and appreciate all the little things.
Here's a video of the song Fly me to the moon, By Frank Sinatra. Whether that quote is related to this. Every time I think of that quote I think of this song ;-) It always cheers me up or relaxes me a bit So I can get on with it! So this is for all of you guys.
All my love, and Round 2 Here we Go...